Saturday, February 17, 2018

Trust and Destruction

I lie down on the radiation table 
and look at a machine 
that can destroy cancer cells 
or destroy my life. 

I close my eyes 
and pray 
and worship 
the God who gave me life 
and is a shield protecting me. 

It is a choice that I must make...

every morning
Monday through Friday
at 9:30 in the morning. 

I make the choice to trust daily, 
but it didn't start there.

It started weeks ago
when I chose to trust God for radiation.

It started months ago
when I chose to trust God for chemotherapy.

It started nearly a year ago
in April when I found the lump 
and chose to trust 
God with my future.

It started years ago
when I chose to trust God 
with my eternity and my salvation.

Thank you God for giving me peace 
and banishing fear.

Make your choices now...
before the crisis...
or in the crisis...
but choose now whom 
you will trust and serve.

I will trust and serve the
creator of the universe
who is awesome and loving
and who gave his life for me.


I am trusting
that the right things
will be destroyed
and trusting
in God's protection
for He is a shield to me.


I am entering my last two weeks of radiation.
I am feeling the effects. 
I need rest.
I will probably not write much for awhile.
Thank you for your prayers
and your notes.
God keep you all.



  1. Laura, my thoughts and prayers are with you this morning.

  2. Laura, I'm sending big hugs to you and bigger prayers to our heavenly Father for your healing!

  3. What a lovely way to share Christ, so beautifully written as you gave all the glory to God Himself.
    You have chosen wisely over these last months, but most importantly, you have chosen Christ as your personal Savior.
    May God give you rest in these days ahead as you look to Him.
    Continuing to pray for you.

    Sending you love and hugs~

  4. Sweet, sweet friend,
    This is so very beautiful.
    Your faith is inspiring...
    And as each week...I will offer my Holy Eucharist tonight for your complete healing. May God continue to give you peace in your heart and strength in your soul. : )

  5. Hugs and healing prayers for you, Laura.
    Take care of yourself, we will be here when you are ready and able.

  6. Sending prayers.. God is with you, and lots of prayers going up for you.. May the radiation treatments heal your body, with no side effects.. He is awesome..

  7. I am praying for you dear friend. This was such an amazing post that touched me deeply. You put in an incredible amount of work creating all those beautiful graphics when you really aren't feeling well. I love that you shared how we need to make a choice how we will respond before the crisis. God bless you dear sister.

  8. PS don't worry about responding just rest.

  9. We're praying for you, Laura and I know that God will shield and protect you from everything. He loves you and will take care of you!

  10. Oh Laura, this post brought tears to my eyes. I was truly blessed and inspired by your words and the Scripture you shared. Bless you, dear friend. You remain in my thoughts and prayers.

    Sending you lots of love and hugs!

  11. Dios te bendiga a ti y tu linda family, mi querida hermanita , te llevo en mis oraciones al trono de la gracia .Muchos besitos preciosa 😘😘🙏🙏

  12. May love and prayers surround you throughout these next two weeks and beyond. I wanted to share a scripture verse with you from The Book of Mormon: "Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song; he also has become my salvation." Rest up, Laura, and take care.

  13. You're in my thoughts and prayers Laura, God bless you!

  14. Laura, I was reading this last night and I remembered you. God bless you!

    “But if I were you, I would appeal to God;
    I would lay my cause before him.
    He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed,
    miracles that cannot be counted.
    He provides rain for the earth;
    he sends water on the countryside.
    The lowly he sets on high,
    and those who mourn are lifted to safety.
    He thwarts the plans of the crafty,
    so that their hands achieve no success.
    He catches the wise in their craftiness,
    and the schemes of the wily are swept away.
    Darkness comes upon them in the daytime;
    at noon they grope as in the night.
    He saves the needy from the sword in their mouth;
    he saves them from the clutches of the powerful.
    So the poor have hope,
    and injustice shuts its mouth.

    “Blessed is the one whom God corrects;
    so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty.[a]
    For he wounds, but he also binds up;
    he injures, but his hands also heal.
    From six calamities he will rescue you;
    in seven no harm will touch you.
    In famine he will deliver you from death,
    and in battle from the stroke of the sword.
    You will be protected from the lash of the tongue,
    and need not fear when destruction comes.
    You will laugh at destruction and famine,
    and need not fear the wild animals.
    For you will have a covenant with the stones of the field,
    and the wild animals will be at peace with you.
    You will know that your tent is secure;
    you will take stock of your property and find nothing missing.
    You will know that your children will be many,
    and your descendants like the grass of the earth.
    You will come to the grave in full vigor,
    like sheaves gathered in season.

    “We have examined this, and it is true.
    So hear it and apply it to yourself.”

    Job chapter 5

  15. Laura, this is an amazing post!!! I love it, as it shows your life choice and your deep faith! God is with you, has been, and will be.... hang in there, dear friend!

  16. ....dear sweet Laura..your faith is so strong...just like you.
    I pray for a complete recovery for you and for continued strength and understanding..and comfort. xoxo

  17. A very WISE post, Laura, to others facing a journey through this life. I am praying for you and I know you must be feeling tired and a bit overwhelmed at this point. Two weeks left, Kiddo! You can do this- the end is in sight! xo Diana

  18. These Bible verses are uplifting. I pray them for you and I'm encouraged as well! He gives rest to the weary. May you feel His peace and healing. Loving hugs!

  19. You are so courageous !!! and inspiring to us all through your trials. And what a testimony for your friends and family, that the solid foundation of your faith that you chose to stand on many years ago is holding firm and supporting you today..Bless you and your precious faith. x

  20. What an amazing arsenal of scripture you have listed here Laura! As I think of you facing that cold radiation machine, I look at each scripture you listed, and believe that the Lord is greater than the fear that it brings. Your hope and trust in the Lord is a sure foundation, and you are being lifted up in prayer and the Lord is with you! What an incredible testament to the power of our Mighty Lord! Looking forward to a miraculous report for complete remission in Jesus name! Hugs to you today dear friend!

  21. Excellent verses, Laura! I continue to stand with you over all. <3

  22. Continued prayers for healing, strength and peace for you my friend.


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2 Year Cancer Survivor