Saturday, October 28, 2017

And It Came To Pass... Cancer Surgery

Some of my favorite words in the Bible are, "and it came to pass."
The oldest known literature in the English language (at least when I was in college) was called Deor's Lament. It was a long poem that told of one terrible thing after another that had happened in the past. Each stanza ended with these words, "That now is gone, this too shall pass." It was written in old English, but the meaning was the holds truth for the twenty-first century.

So, the  cancer surgery, like the chemo, has come to pass. Some of my bandages were removed this week. A couple of the drainage tubes were removed. Hopefully, even more will be removed next week. It's been hard at times this last week, but God, my medical team, my friends, my prayer team, and my family have been faithful to take care of me. Thank you all for doing your part to help me through this tough part of my life that feels like one long lament. Thank you God, that with Jesus, it's not over. That now is gone, this too shall pass.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Surgery is Behind Me Now ~ An Update


 I had my surgery on Friday, October 20th. The surgeons said that my surgeries went well. I'm still in pain and have limited mobility with my arms. I feel as good as my pain meds tell me I feel at any point in time. ~smile~ They make me groggy, too, but I'm thankful for them.

~ Thank you so much to all of you who are praying for me and for my family.

~Thank you to those who have shown us love in a tangible way such as bringing meals, cleaning, doing laundry,  sending food gift cards, or giving my kids rides have truly blessed us in a practical way, too. It's so hard not to be able to take care of my family and home the way I want to.

There's nothing like the body of Christ taking care of each other.

Hugs to you all!
Trusting God like never before

P.S. Please check yourself.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Home Again

Hello all,
 Praise to God, I am home. Thank you all for praying. The doctors said that my surgery went well. I'm still in pain, but it feels good to be back in my own home with my family. I'll write more when I feel up to it. Thank you again!
So Thankful

Friday, October 20, 2017

Today is Surgery Day, Please Pray for Me

Today is surgery day. Please pray for me. I will be away from the blog for awhile. I'm not sure how soon I will feel up to typing again. I have excellent surgeons, and I trust God will guide their hands as well as those of the staff members who care for me. Thank you all for going through this cancer journey with me. It's not been fun, but you've all encouraged me so much along the way. Thank you for your patience with me especially these last few weeks. 

Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’

Isaiah 41:10

And He (Jesus) said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace, and be healed of your affliction.” Mark 5:34

Lord my God, I cried out to You, And You healed me.
Psalm 30:2

Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.
3 John 1:2

Be blessed!
I'll be back when I feel up to typing again.
Thank you for keeping me in your prayers as I heal.

Trusting in my Jesus

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He's Fighting My Battles ~ Trusting God with This Day ~ Breast Cancer Journey

The Post I've Been Avoiding The Diagnosis
The Lord is My Strength. In Christ Alone I Put My Trust


Saturday, October 14, 2017

He's Fighting My Battles ~ Trusting God with This Day ~ Breast Cancer Journey

Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash

Dear Readers,

You all have been so sweet and kind to me through this breast cancer journey. I am so encouraged by your comments and cards and gifts. God has been so good to me as I focus on the process of getting well. 

When I found out about the cancer, I was not angry. 
God didn't give me cancer.
It rains on the just and the unjust. 

God did see what Satan was going to do, and He made sure I had all the things I needed to fight this cancer including health insurance and the Word of faith inside me. I do not feel like I am fighting cancer at all. God is fighting the battle for me.

His name is Jehovah Sabaoth 
which means Lord of Hosts, 
leader in the battle. 

Truthfully, after the initial shock, I could see so many things that God had set in motion to help me, I got rather excited!

He is an awesome God! 
He will get glory from this!

God will see me through this. He saw me through chemotherapy. He will see me through surgery. Yes, I get scared once in awhile. When I get fearful, I have to change my focus to God, trust Him, and just go through this day. He will be with me in every "this day." Every bit of strength and hope and faith comes from God Himself.

"Faith comes by hearing 
and hearing by the Word of God." 
Romans 10:17

Saturate yourself with the Word of God! Read it, listen to it on Bible Gateway or Listening is a great way to get the Word inside you! Listen over and over until it changes the way you think and speak!

Dear reader, there is nothing I want more for you than that you should draw closer to God. He loves you so much. No matter what you're going through, He is the one who will take you through "this day". He will never leave you nor forsake you. He is your ever present help in times of trouble. But first—you must reach out to him.

God bless you all!
Thank you so much for your prayers.
Trusting God with this day each day

Related Posts:
The Post I've Been Avoiding The Diagnosis
The Lord is My Strength. In Christ Alone I Put My Trust

Thursday, October 12, 2017

Out of Control

Happy Fall,

I'm choosing to be happy in spite of breast cancer and difficult circumstances! You can choose to be happy, too! Grab all the joy you can from the season!

I have a Doxie mix. Mama was Dachshund, papa was a ramblin' man.
She's got the Doxie attitude though. She's been a little rascal to train.
Who am I kidding? We didn't train her, she trained us! We've just come to
an understanding. ~grin~
She's three now. When she was six months old, the only reason I kept her is because I knew someone would tie her up to a tree and leave her there. This mama's heart couldn't let that happen. So we kept her.

We finally began to bond over vegetables. I gave her some little pieces of veggies one day while cutting up a salad. She loves veggies, and she's come to love me...sort of...while I'm cutting up veggies or deboning chicken. ~smile~  After all this time, I enjoy her company. While she's not really an affectionate dog, she does show "love" in her own ways. She's not the cake I wanted, but she's a good cake. Thanks Sonya for that phrase. ~smile~

It kind of reminds me of the people in our lives. We imagine what we think our husband, our children and our friends will be like. We try to plan out our futures. We try to control everything and everyone to make them conform to our hopes, dreams, and plans. The problem is, each person has their own personality, their own hopes, dreams and plans. And they're probably not our hopes, dreams, and plans. Everyone wants to be in control. That doesn't work so well.

Nothing in this cancer journey has been what I imagined what it would be like. It's been easier in some ways; it's been harder in some ways. I've been surprised at some of the people who have prayed, encouraged, and helped me; and, I've been surprised at some of the people that I thought would help me through who seem to have checked out for whatever reason. It's all made me feel so blessed and so sad by turns.

One thing I'm learning is that I really don't have as much control as I once thought I did. I had one date in October that I did not want to have surgery. That's the date the surgeon scheduled for me. My surgery is the 20th. My daughter, Emily, will perform in public for the first time the next day at the Maple Leaf Festival. I'll still be in the hospital. That made me cry for awhile on the way home from the doctor's office.

I don't control my times for appointments, surgery, IV infusions, or radiation. I cannot control my family's behavior. Sometimes I feel like I can't even control my own behavior! But God. He's teaching me through this. What? I'm not totally sure yet, but I think trust is one thing. I have to learn to trust Him to take care of me when I cannot take care of myself. I have to trust that He will bring the right people to help me at the right times. It's hard.

As moms, we have to control so much, especially when are kids are young. Now I'm learning how to be out of control, and I'm not liking it one bit. ~smile~ The song Learning to Lean on Jesus just came to mind.

I'll leave you for now with a request that you will pray for all the people involved in my surgery on the 20th and my hospital stay. You've all been so good to pray for me through all this. I receive so many encouraging comments and notes.

May God bless you richly as you draw close to Him!


Monday, October 9, 2017

Happy Homemaker Monday ~ October 9, 2017

As I write ... Sunday evening

The weather....  Pleasant day, sunny with a few clouds floating overhead, not too hot, not too chilly. As evening came on, it grew chilly—just as fall evenings should be!

Right now I am... just relaxing.

Thinking... I'm thinking about my upcoming surgery. I will have my bilateral mastectomy on October 20th. I'm thinking about who might be available to help me after my surgery. 

A quote to share... 

On my reading pile...  Believe it or not, I don't really have a reading pile right now. I usually have books to review, but I've been declining offers for the last few months. I'm still reading Bible Faith Study Course slowly. There's just so much good teaching in it.

Favorite blog post last week...  

Something fun to share... 

On the menu for this week...
  • Monday...   Ham steak, broccoli, and side salad
  • Tuesday...   Chicken and dumplings with mashed potatoes
  • Wednesday...  Church supper - bbq pulled pork or chicken sandwich
  • Thursday...  Something with chicken breasts
  • Friday...  Family Movie Night at church... We'll probably eat concessions.

On my to do list... 
  • Make a list of everything I want to do before surgery.
  • Do some things on my bucket list.
  • Put out some more fall decorations.

In the workbasket...  
  • I've just cast on a hat. I love having a knitting project on the needles.
  • I usually keep a dishcloth on my crochet hook. I like knitted cloths, too, but they take much longer to knit. I use dishcloths for small gifts.
  • I'm embarrassed that this is still on my list! I really should hem my husband's jeans. They've been waiting awhile. I'm always afraid to make the cut!
  • I need to hem my daughter's work pants, too.

Looking forward to this week...
  •  Monday - pre-op appointment at the hospital
  • Thursday - My friend is coming to help me around the house.
  • Saturday - We're taking all our kids, even the grown ones, on a destination unknown. I'd love to tell you where we're going, but this would be the one time they actually read my blog if I did!

Looking around the house...  I see so much that I want done before surgery, but I'll just have to accept that I haven't regained my strength, stamina, and energy after chemo yet. 

From the camera... 
Salmon Salad


    On my prayer list...

    • Peace of Jerusalem and Israel

    • Wisdom, health, and protection for President Trump, Vice-President Pence, and their families. 

    • Healing for our country so that we may be ONE nation under God.

    • Cancer will die the death in my body. My heart, brain, organs, spleen, and healthy cells will be protected. I will live and not die and declare the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Psalm 118:17

    My prayer for you, my reader...

    Jesus, I thank you that you hear our prayers. Father, I thank you for sending Jesus. Holy Spirit, I thank you for being our comforter and our teacher. Lord God, three in one, I thank you that you personally know each one of my readers. You know each one's needs, fears, hopes, problems, pains, and illnesses. I ask you God to speak directly to each one, to meet each person's needs, and heal each physical problem. Bless each spiritually, physically, socially, and financially. I ask it all by the power of the Blood of Jesus, in Jesus' Name. Amen.

    Thanks for dropping by!

    Please say hello.
    Trusting in God's timing, provision, and healing power

    Joining with Sandra at Happy Homemaker Monday.

    Thursday, October 5, 2017

    Fall Bucket List 2017

    This promises to be a Fall like no other.

    I'll be having mastectomy surgery on October 20th. 
    I've made an ambitious list, I know. 
    I want to squeeze all the joy I can from the season.
    I'll just enjoy what I can, and trust God that 
    Autumn will come again.

    I'll change each item to italics as I complete it. 

    • Write my fall bucket list
    • Celebrate First Day of Fall September 22nd
    • Celebrate end of chemo cycle September 29th
    • Enjoy candy pumpkins
    • Sip apple cider
    • Shop for a new sweater - I've looked online. Nothing yet.
    • Burn cinnamony, pumpkiny, spicy fall candles
    • Queen's Apples - apple slices with caramel and pecans
    • Knit a hat ~ I cast on October 7th. Finished October 12th.
    • Baked cookies with Amy.
    • Destination Unknown with the kids- Lamberts' Thrown Rolls
    • Listen to Christmas music
    • Watch Christmas movies*  
    • Lunch with Rebecca and Amber
    • Mastectomy Surgery October 20th - Home now. Doctors say it went well. Still in pain. Updated 10/24.
    • Gaze into the fire in our woodstove
    • Take a drive to look at fall foliage 
    • Pumpkin pie
    • Curl up with a terrific book
    • Enjoy a candle lit evening
    • Enjoy a play at Stained Glass Theater - Arsenic and Old Lace
    • Drink eggnog
    • Try a new soup or stew - A friend brought lasagna soup
    • Take a walk and enjoy the maple leaves
    • Read a wonderful Christmas book ~ Christmas at Grey Sage
    • Bake bread ~ My Lowell did it for me.
    • Worship God under the stars
    • Collect leaves to decorate
    • Celebrate Thanksgiving
    • Hurrah for the pecan pie!
    • Read by candlelight or lamplight
    • Decorate Tree with the Kids
    • Make friendship tea
    • Bake pumpkin shaped cut out sugar cookies
    • Roast marshmallows for s'mores
    • Go to a bonfire or enjoy our outdoor fireplace
    • Make Christmas gifts
    • Harvest Celebration Cake
    • Make bitty blessings from the Lanes
    • Plan Christmas gifts
    • Make apple crisp
    Have you made a Fall Bucket List?
    Please share your link in the comments.

    Thank you for your prayers.

    Squeezing Out the Joy

    Well, I didn't finish the list, but I enjoyed
    the season far more than if I hadn't made a list.
    God bless us every one.
    December 1, 2017

    Christmas movies I've watched this Fall:
    A Christmas Snow
    Christmas Tail
     All I Want for Christmas
    Christmas in Connecticut

    Monday, October 2, 2017

    Happy Homemaker Monday and My Daybook ~ October 2, 2017

    Dear Ladies, 

    Hello again! I am feeling a bit better each day as I get farther away from my last chemo treatment. It's nice to know that my body is finally getting a chance to recover without being knocked down again.

    I have a date for my surgery. It will be October 20th. At first, I was unhappy that I have to wait nearly three more weeks. After some thought, I remembered that I prayed that God would put the right people in place for each part of this journey. It may be that I need the particular anesthesiologist or nurse or person that sterilizes the equipment that day. I don't know. I do know that God is the one in control, and I must trust him. It may be that he knew my body needed to heal more or maybe that I just needed a break from doctors and medical facilities to enjoy my favorite month! 

    Over the years, I've linked my day books with The Simple Woman, and later, I changed format and linked with Happy Homemaker Monday. Right now I feel I need simplicity, so I'm going to keep it simple and easy.

    May God bring you strength, patience, hope, and perseverance during the days to come. In my last day book, I mentioned my Cousin Gloria in Florida. Her family was safe and her home were not damaged. Thank you God! Many are still recovering in the aftermath of the many natural disasters. Sometimes it just all seems like too much, BUT GOD.


    Outside my window...
    The sky is dark. I see lights from the highway.

    I am thinking...
    I will be so glad when I completely recover from this chemo. I wonder what the next step, surgery and recovery, will be like.

    I am thankful...
    I have insurance that will pay my medical bills through the end of this year. Trusting God for next year. A change in insurance has already been predicted, but we haven't seen details yet.

    In the kitchen...
    I made Jalapeno Popper Chicken Soup from the Trim Healthy Mama Cookbook last night. That was the second book. We had leftovers for lunch today.

    I am wearing...
    I'm wearing my orange dress. I would never buy an orange dress. The catalog showed a tan dress. I cannot remember the name of the color, but it was not orange. I was going through chemo, so I didn't return it.

    I am creating...
    nothing right now. I really should think about Christmas.

    I am going...
    to make some plans tomorrow and update my calendar. I need to make a list of all the things I or someone needs to do before surgery. I know. I need to take it easy, but it may be months before I feel somewhat good again. I don't know what to expect.

    I am wondering...
    what the rest of this year is going to look like for our family. I need surgery and radiation. My husband also needs knee replacement surgery. I don't know how it's all going to work out.

    I am reading... 
    A Gathering of Days at Karen Andreola's suggestion.

    I am hoping...
    to get a little time to relax this week, and to do something fun, too. It's been a long time since I've done anything fun.

    I am looking forward to...

    I am learning...
    I have to be proactive about my symptoms and side effects. One of my medicines was causing weakness and pain in my legs that made it difficult to walk. I figured out what it was myself, confirmed with my pharmacist, then saw my doctor a couple days later. He took me off the medicine. My legs are improving, but I am still having pain—especially at night. 

    Around the house...
    I've got the general cleaning up that always needs to be done after a busy weekend. 

    I am pondering...
    not much right now truthfully.

    A favorite quote for today...

    President Teddy Roosevelt

    Favorite posts this week... 
    One of my favorite things...
    Follow my Autumn Inspiration board on Pinterest.

    A few plans for the rest of the week... a balance of planning, work, and rest.

    A peek into my day... I've been listening to this album.

    May the God of Shalom peace, 
    nothing missing, nothing broken, nothing lacking 
    bless you as you seek to love Jesus 
    with all your heart, mind, soul, and strength.
    Happy at Home

    P.S. I am reading all of your comments. Your prayers and words of encouragement these last few weeks have helped to keep my spirit up.
    Thank you for being patient with me. I'm still not replying unless someone asks a question or requests it. I may reply directly if something seems like it needs a response. Thanks for understanding. 
    Hugs to you all!


    May I suggest?

    Stress Less This Christmas

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